IG recap: August 2nd and August 9th
Understanding “Slowing Down”
Slowing down. Only now, after years of being told this, then being forced to do it, all the while resisting at every turn, am I understanding what that means.
I’ve been my own guinea pig for many years now, always trying new things and measuring their impact on me in my search for restored health and energy and less pain.
Every little ache, every new symptom, was a new variable to factor into the every growing equation. But, because the aches and symptoms kept coming, the numbers refused to add up.
That meant I wasn’t adding up.
I had not realized how this toxic belief, that my pain meant I was somehow failing, had woven itself through the fibers of my brain, my heart, even my soul.
It wasn’t until I found myself sobbing over a meditation that simply began with placing myself in the loving gaze of Jesus that I realized, well, I couldn’t.
I couldn’t let Jesus see me. I wasn’t well. He couldn’t love me. I wasn’t measuring up. Oh, how long had I been hiding from Him and avoiding Him in my heart?
And so it began: relearning how to pray, how to trust, how to open closed doors in my soul and truly let Him in.
I’m still there, undoing, relearning, ushering Him into the places I didn’t know I had sealed shut.
But, oh my gosh, His Love is so beautiful.
To love and to be loved. In sickness and in health. The vows couples say at the start of their marriage are the same Christ says to His Church, and to each of us personally.
But instead of death parting, death is the entering into the climax of the relationship with Him.
He loves me, even in my sickness. He loves me, even in my bad times. He loves me, when I have nothing to give but myself. He just wants me to believe it, to welcome it, and to love Him back.
He loves you, too.
Let yourself sit with it and believe it. And He will change your life, like He is changing mine.
“Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you.”
In Christ. ❤️
God Can Handle It, So Trust Him
Do you think He can’t heal you?
Deep down, if you really think about it, is there part of you that is afraid to surrender control to Him because you’re afraid that He can’t – or won’t – take care of it the right way?
It’s scary to let go. It’s scary to stop trying everything and finally just let Him do it.
There are seasons for trying harder, but they have to be balanced with seasons of surrender.
Each person’s journey will be different. Some need to be challenged to work harder for healing and growth, while others need to stop thinking it’s all up to them. For many, there can be a mix of both at once: growth in some areas enabled by letting go of others.
The next time you find yourself doubting whether God can handle your worries, issues, problems better than you, sit with Isaiah 40: 12-18. Let it touch your heart, ease your mind, and comfort your soul to remember that we are so woefully unequipped to do or handle anything in contrast to God. But with Him working through us, anything is possible.
Here is a portion:
“Who has cupped in his hand the waters of the sea, and marked off the heavens with a span?
Who has held in a measure the dust of the earth, weighed the mountains in scales and the hills in a balance?
Who has directed the spirit of the Lord, or has instructed him as his counselor?
Whom did he consult to gain knowledge? Who taught him the path of judgment, or showed him the way of understanding?
To whom can you liken God?”
Blessed be the Lord. ❤️
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